My first abortion was the most painful, unforgettable thing I had ever experienced.. It was not something I never want to go through again. I was only fourteen years old, a freshman in high school. The pain I endured was more mental than physical. Although it happened well over five years ago, I remember it like it was yesterday. I still have nightmares about it. I even cry about it and wonder what my life would be like if I would have kept my child. But at the time I could not keep it. I was too young to raise a child. Yeah, I remember it like it was yesterday.
             On February 16, 1998, I thought I was in love. I had given myself to guy I had been with for a year. I was young and stupid. Weeks after we had sex, I remember praying to God that my period would come, but it never came. Two months had past before I told my mother. She took me to the doctor the next day. I was so nervous sitting in the examination room. It felt like my stomach was doing somersaults. The nurse finally called my name. Before I went in, my mom told me she had to pick up my brother from school, and to wait until she came back.
             While sitting in the cold, bright examination room , I kept thinking, "What if I am pregnant, what am I going to do?" Then I thought, "Girl why are you tripping, you are not pregnant. Quit stressing yourself." When the doctor came in, she did the routine vital signs check.
             "When was your last period?"
             "In February," I replied.
             She gave me a little cup and told me to urinate in it. After she took my urine samples she asked, "What are you going to do if you are pregnant?"
             "I don't know."
             She left the room. After she left I fell into a daze. I sat there with my head in my hands , and my elbows on my knees. I never heard the doctor come in. When she returned everything went mute...