A Life Not Worth Living
The sun rising from the window in the corner, the alarms irritating ring, and the traffic outside. The things that start his day, a day that he does not wish to live through. This is day 0, out of the 16 years of his life. He has yet to be truly happy and he has lost the hope of trying to find happiness. Every night before he falls asleep he has the fear of waking up. This fear consumes him, his life, his everything. He can feel the cruelty around him. He wonders why this has been chosen as his fate, and not the next. He wonders about a lot of things. These feelings he has replayed in his head as if they are all he is made of. His smile is a mask. A mask glued to his face, his mouth is locked. He is determined to live in silence for the fear of his fate being sealed to the meaningless existence that he is forced to relive each day of his life. This boys soul is dead. This boy is me. I have always been forced to live my life in my own personal hell. I am the cause for the problems of the world. I have always had the feeling of complete sadness hanging out my head. The feeling of a tear falling, but that tear cannot be released because if it is, I will feel better. I prevent myself from being hap
Accepting yourself is a hard thing to do. They never experienced the pride that they waited and stood by me for so long for. py at any given second because I fear that I will miss those feelings so incredibly I will sink deeper into the ground of silence and sadness. Although she is not the root of all my problems I feel that she has contributed to a lot of my sadness. There are times when I feel there is nothing here for me. Leave nothing to be forgotten, and leave no room for judgment. Death is the most permanent mistake a person can ever endure. There are so many different types of people in this world, we all need to learn to respect the fact that we will never all be the same. I moved on, and I found people who truly loved me. - I cannot express to anyone how precious life is. The point of this story is so that anyone who reads this will have some insight on what its like to live with depression and anxiety. If someone cannot love you for who you are inside, and not the way you live your life, then they don't deserve your attention. In my heart I feel that I have given them something greater than life. I have given them appreciation for the life they were given. You are you, and what you think is all that matters in your life.
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