School was great; it was my release from life. I had a lot of friends, I was popular, I was in orchestra, leadership, choir, French, drama, dance, president of a couple clubs, and an active member of many other clubs. I was one of the most active students in school. I was not only the class clown, but also the person that you would go to if you needed advise or to talk. But, as soon as I started my journey home my whole life crashed to the ground.
As I walked the half-mile down Piedmont Road, and then the left turn and another half mile up Noble Avenue, I would sing of my feelings. Even though I have what every person thinks every kid wants, I would sing of how I would always be the best friend, and I would never have a special someone.
Nothing but a state of mind and an opinion
You are everything I could ever want
I could say, "There's nothing more I could ask for"
In my opinion there is no-one better for me
Because no-one has a more beautiful face
Everything that was dark becomes bright
And everything that was bright - the sky, the sun, the moon, the ocean, and the stars
Unable to comprehend that you are mine
One of the many poems I wrote while in "The cave", talking about my perfect person. But, even more, I sang about my life out of school. The life with my family, this is one of the many songs/poems that I wrote about how I felt in "The cave".
Nothing changes, it all stays the same
You look for something you can never find
A small hope of peace in the storm around
Where the monsters of your heart await
Spilling your blood with your hopes
A bleeding soul is all that remains
A long lost friend returning me home
Joining the last hopes of your life
Spilling your blood with your hopes
A bleeding soul is all that remains
An open doorway into the dark beyond
The invitation to return where I once was
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