The Addiction of Control
As I walked into the hospital room that would become my home for the next two months, I caught a glimpse in the full length mirror of a complete stranger. I did not recognize the sixty- eight pound frail girl staring back at me. Anorexia is a disease of addiction that slowly took over my entire being to the point of not knowing who I had become. During my struggle and recovery from anorexia I have faced its control and influence over my physical health, mental and emotional state, and my spiritual growth. The first and most obvious signs of an eating disorder are seen through its harmful effects on the body's physical health. Extreme weight loss is noticed as the victim refuses to eat and usually becomes driven by exercise. An anorexic's satisfaction in seeing and feeling her protruding bones
Anorexia is an addiction that will lead to death, and only the Savior can give meaning and purpose to living again without the disease. Other physical signs of malnutrition are: loss of hair, the growth of a fine layer of hair on the body called lanugo in which the body attempts to keep itself warm, insomnia, and the inability to concentrate. Counting and memorizing calories, constantly stepping onto a scale, and cutting food into tiny pieces, are all examples of the mental control of anorexia. Recovery will only take place when an anorexic comes to realize their spiritual sickness and places their addiction in God's care. Church attendance usually comes to a halt as isolation increases and the anorexic become more comfortable in the deceptive world of an eating disorder, running from the forgiveness and love of God. A distorted self image causes the anorexic to become obsessive in many ways. He alone can heal physically, emotionally, and mentally. The body and food become the center of thought and motivation, taking over the mind and reactions. Emotionally, starvation causes the person to become very withdrawn and depressed. I am thankful that I can stand today, once lying at death's door, and say that my Lord is able. The mental and emotional deceptions caused by anorexia are harder to see and correct then the physical illness. As the starvation continues, fatigue and weakness become normal feelings due to the extreme malnourishment. By taking their life into their own hands, anorexics turn from God and pursue what they feel is best. The third and most harmful influence that anorexia has is on the spiritual well-being of the individual.
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