The terms fear and courage played a major role in the life experience of Tim O'Brien. Like most other young males who just graduated college, in 1968 after graduating from Macalester College in St. Paul, Minnesota, he sought different opportunities in hopes of becoming independent and gaining a career. Before these hopes of opportunity are realized, however, he receives notice that he has been drafted to the Vietnam War. He acknowledges the tragedies that may occur in war, and fears for his life. Generally courage is a way of overcoming fear. However, in O'Brien's supreme perspective, he reveals his extreme fear of courage. He finds himself in a "moral emergency" where he must analyze his perception of courage in order to make such a critical decision (901). After his analysis, he felt that as much as he feared loosing his life in war, he couldn’t reveal that reason for not wanting to go to war to avoid any type of humiliation. He doubted his life if he pursued on with the process of war and therefore made excuses for himself to stay out. Because O'Brien didn't accept the challenge to follow his heart, he took the easy way out and went to war. His lack of courage forced him to live under the circumstance of n
"I understood that I would not do what I should do, I would not swim away from my hometown and my country and my life. Because of this, he proved to be a coward after all, by not following his heart. He felt they wouldn't respect him because running away from the war would make him out to be a coward. He feels that doing what the government wants is right because of their authority. His mistake of going to war was evidently an experience that will haunt him for the rest of his life. O"tmBrien didn"tmt want to be in the war because he feared killing and being killed. His fear of courage resulted in his decision to fight in the Vietnam War. He doesn"tmt want to attend war because he fears it, what in the world can he do Many can answer what they could do but O"tmBrien was in doubt of what he could do for himself in order to be out of such of a dilemma. Under no circumstance does he see himself doing what he wants to do instead he falls into a place of indecisiveness. When Tim finally admits to his fear of courage, he fails to do anything about it and is left with one option of giving in to fear and going to war. He doesn"tmt realize that becoming independent is process he must go through in order to make a difference and solve his problems. O'Brien believed that either you stood by your conscience, or you were a coward. O"tmBrien fails to peruse his idea of not attending war and seems to become depressed.