A Blessing In Disguise
At eight years of age, my biggest problem should have been deflecting the names of Bucky Beaver and Nerd. My teeth protruded from my lips, my bangs hung in my eyes, and my bobby socks sagged at my ankles. What place do saggy socks have in the mind of a child when my parents sit me down one day after school and tell me, “We aren’t your parents’? Thinking I didn’t hear them right, they said it again. “We aren’t your real parents, and you have a sister.” Did I hear right? (What was wrong with my ears?) When they said I had a sister living across town, the words fell around me like shards of glass hitting the floor at once. The blood drained from my face as my hands went over my ears and I shut my eyes. Pretend not to hear, to see, and when I take my hands away, it won’t be real, I thought.As I stared at my mother and father, I sensed their tension, and my stomach churned. “We’ve been meaning to tell you this for some time,” Dad said. “You see, we are your foster parents. Your father ran away right after you were born. Your mother had a nervous breakdown and was placed in an institution.” Reality set in quickly. I learned my biological mother had recently made a miraculous recovery. At the state officials’ . . .
She knew all about me, and I knew nothing about her. I didn’t really understand where I belonged anymore. The confusion took its own course as, together, we learned about our different journeys and made a pact to stay connected in the future. I started thinking of the secrets I’d have to keep. Over that weekend, we found out that although we were different in many ways, we had so much in common, especially how we both love to laugh, take risks, and accept people at face value. insistence, a meeting was arranged between my sister, my biological mother, and me which forced the unpleasant conversation upon us. I didn’t feel as lonely anymore having Debbie beside me. Debbie hugged me as I got out of the car, and asked, “Can I introduce you as my little sister?” In that moment, everything turned right side up again in my world. During my junior year in high school, Debbie invited me to visit her at college. I just didn’t want to accept this other family into my life. How could I tell people about this other mother and sister? After all, I still lived with my now “foster” parents. It turned out my new sister, Debbie, who was slightly older, had known about me for a few years and now wanted to spend time getting to know me.
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