love
In the time I've spent in this world I've cried and laughed, I've Suffered and I've enjoyed, I've tried and I've fallen, I've received and I've lost, I've lived and I've loved. But yet I'm still confused on many things. For instance, what is love? Many think it's the strongest emotion that a human being can have, but I seem to find the word over used and I think it's lost its meaning. These days' people throw the word around all the time. People look at situations and say, "oh that's not love" and try to define it as something else, like lust, infatuation, or 'deep liking' who is to say what love is and what love isn't? It's a word that really can't be defined because it means something different to everyone. I used to have the fairy tale dream. One day prince charming would come riding up for me on his horse and we'd ride away to his castle where we would live happily ever after with our children, but through heartache and suffering I've realized that dream will never happen, nor will anything close to it. I don't fully understand the word love and I don't think I ever will. But who needs love? I've lived my life for fifteen years without it, why should I chang
e that now? I have my friends who keep me on solid ground. You have to hold your feelings inside and hide and pretend you're feeling something you aren't the feeling of being fine. The final thing that makes me wonder about love is the line between friendship and love. So one day a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart and it hurts. It just seems like one of those days, weeks, or months where nothing is going right. When no one else is listening and when I'm feeling sad I cry to myself because no one else is crying for me. The smile on my face shows everyday, so no one really knows how I feel, am I truly happen? There are things on my mind, can't talk about it, sometimes I don't tell anyone what I'm going through, they just don't seem to care. As I lay here fading my thoughts are invaded by memories of my past I feel the pressures of shame and rejection building as I lay here, I have no strength to get up I'm not worth it any more. All I do is cry, I can't stop this pain, and all I want to do is die. After we've been hurt and suffer why do we keep falling in love again and again? Shouldn't we learn from our mistakes? Love has no rhyme or reason, no basis to its beginning, we don't know how or why a broken heart mends and why one day we just wake up and are ok. I'll tell you I'm fine but deep inside I'm dying. Don't get me wrong, I believe in love but I also believe in the fact that love is what keeps pulling us down. I have no reason to get out of bed in the morning, nothing to look forward to in the day. Don't let on that you're not, what you're pretending to be.
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