Integrity

He was the strange, snooping, and intrusive kid who sneaks around and ties up cats in abandoned houses to question them as witnesses searching for clues about crimes and mysteries that didn’t even exist. Even then though his reality has always been filled with spaces and missing blocks of time in which he suffered from a “blackout”. In order to give himself a sense of meaning or real purpose John chose to spend all of his time thinking about his fantasy world if not completely entrapping himself in it. It is up to the individual person what mechanism is used to obtain this feeling. Everyone always saw John as an outsider. For most this mechanism is applied in reality. Detective O’Day was a smooth, suave, stealth man who possessed all the qualities that John lacked. These little spells of missing time which usually only lasted about forty five minutes must have left John feeling a little incomplete especially if no one else could help him account for the missing time. The only real quality which they had in common was that they were both “lone wolves”. He was even an outsider in his family. Whether John was intentionally filling the blank spots of his own life through his second fantasy life or not, he consumed the majority of his childhood drafting blueprints, fake bus schedules, imaginary characters, and delicate plotlines to live his life in accordance with. Even if he didn’t know what they were, he knew they were there, and in order to deal with them he could just fall upon his strange habits and escape to his fantasy world.