Generally speaking, everyone has his or her idols in one way or another. And all of us know the truth that life without ambition is like a ship without a rudder. Now, as an adult, I don¡¯t think there is necessary relationship between idols and ambitions any more, but it was impossible for me to treat them respectively when I was young. In fact, in those days, my ambitions just came after my idols. As my idols changed, my ambition changed, too.
             I was born in a traditional family and grew up in a traditional environment. Since I was very young, my parents and my teachers had imbued me with a lot of knowledge of our country¡¯s tragic history. At that time, listening to hero stories, watching hero movies and singing hero paeans were indispensable parts of my life. My heart was totally occupied by national heroes. They were all my idols and I adored them so much. So, my first ambition was to become a PLA man and then become a hero by heroically giving my precious young life on a battlefield. But what¡¯s pity was that nobody told me how to do and I myself didn¡¯t know where to start. Several years later, my first ambition finally ended up with nothing.
             When I was a teenager, movies and songs from Hong Kong and Taiwan were becoming more and more popular. Those highly commercialized movie stars and song stars were soon worshipped by millions of youngsters. In my class, girls apparently adored beautiful female stars, but I really knew what made them crazy were those handsome and cool male stars. The case of our men was just contrary. At that time, my idol was Lin qingxia, a famous movie star pursuing her career first in Taiwan and then in Hong Kong, and my ambition was to become a great actor and get a chance to play a movie with her. In my eyes, she was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. Her beauty often made me give free play to my imagination in class, which also often made my young Chinese teacher so inflamed that he e...