The last time that I cried was on this past New Year's Eve. I had planned on making this New Year's Eve the best ever since for the past three years, I've unfortunately had a rotten night to bring in the New Year, which I think jinxes my chances of having a good year.
             Anyhow, I was in Fairfax, Virginia at the time visiting my dad and my friends. I had previously been living in Virginia for two years for my sophomore and junior year. So, for my senior year I decided to come back to Richmond and be with my mom.
             New Year's Eve started off to a good start. My friend Teresa and I went shopping for new outfits so we'd look our best at this big party we planned going to later that night with some other friends. After that we went to my house and got ready. Once we were ready, we left my house to meet up with our other friends. We ended up taking two cars. Teresa and I in one car, Holly, Lisa, and Kari in another car.
             Now, for the past few days I had been kind of down and out. Before I moved back to Indiana in August, I was seeing a guy name Jimmy Felker, who I thought at the time was so wonderful and sweet. We got along so great. We had so much in common. There was definitely a connection between us. His friends loved me and I loved his friends just as much.
             After I moved, I tried to stay in touch with him like we had planned, but that didn't happen.
             I wrote him two letters and phoned him a few times, but never reached him. Then, his cousin and I talked one day and he had said that Jimmy had run away to New York. I became very devastated and concerned after I learned this. I worried almost each night as I turned myself in for the night; about how was he doing, if he was okay, and if he was safe.
             Then, towards the end of November while I was online, he signed on which surprised me because I hadn't seen him online since the summer.
             I reacted quickly by sending him an instant message. He told me a few st...