You wanna know something? I have no idea on what I am doing, not a clue. Can you explain something to me? How in gods name am I supposed to write a three plus page paper on a "change". I don't know maybe there's something wrong with me, maybe I am just slow. Whatever it is this paper has got to be one of the weirdest things I have ever attempted to write. Why is everything in life so confusing right now?. Anything I do now doesn't make sense to me anymore. I feel as if I am really stupid or something. Every aspect of my life is *censored*ed up in one way or another. Take school for an example, I thought if I went to Holyoke instead of STCC, where all my friends go I would be doing so well. Then reality sets in, the fact is I am doing worse now then in any other year of school. Even my personal life has taken a toll, none of my friends talk anymore its like we all drifted apart. Now that high school is gone my life feels empty. I miss high school. There goes a change right ther!
             e, I knew something would come to me sooner or later. Honest I did. From high school to somewhat of a college.
             It's funny how in only a short period of time your life can change so drastically. Just looking back on this summer I can't believe how much I have changed. I went from not leaving New England to traveling to Sweden for free. I went from dwelling over my ex-girlfriend (Claudia) to not giving a damn about her. But high school. High school was some of the best times of my life. Why did it have to end so soon? I was just getting the hang of things. I don't want to be here writing a college English paper, I want to be sore from football practice, getting ready for wrestling season, or even algebra homework. What I wouldn't do for some of Mr. Brock's algebra homework. Every aspect of high school I miss in some way or another. Ever since I left back in June I feel as if I am just a lost soul doomed to walk the earth feeling lost and misguided. I keep te...