God and she becomes more and more blinded by her love for Bendrix, she begins to see 'man and his creator', as one being. One predominant example of this is when she is desperately hoping to bump into Bendrix as she feels this won't be breaking her vow. She says, 'it was for the first time like I nearly loved You. I walked under Your windows in the rain... I wasn't afraid of the desert any longer because You were there'. Who
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