All alone in life I walked some path that not to many could never relate with. Alone I stand with fear as my ally, the lack of comfort creates in me envy, and insecurity eventually leads to emotion withdraw. For once in my life I would like see more positive results and progress. I am 19 years old, trapped inside myself. Alone once more I find myself wishing, fantasizing about what I could of had and how things should be. Those who do not see the truth in me and how far it took me get at the point where I am at today misunderstood. Often people ask me "what is the most challenging opstical you have faced in your life time?" the answer to that question is very simple. I came in through the back door in 1991 from the no man's land. Born in Africa with lots of disadvantages I made it through some of the most difficult living conditions. I gained handful of knowledge only to be confuse by the facts that reality can drag or can break a person down to nothing emotionally and physca!
             lly. What once stood tall rigde and bolt is now soft, faded and abandoned. Life is very diffuclt specially for people like me who considers themselves different. Growing up in Africa children such as myself live without any thoughts for the future. While most teen in this country dream and fantasies about what to become in the future we wonder helplessly looking for food and clothing. How I arrive in this country is complete mystery. I rather see it a form of miracle. I was hand selected out of the many good hearted children which makes me a specail person. Without any doubts live here in the United States is more stable. I was given an oppurtunity to dream freedom to have whatever my heart desires. The only problem is during the course of life somewhere somehow I took some paths that derailed me from applying maximun capability in my Academics. Life is not perfect that is why I do not feel ashamed of my actions. Nothing in lif
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