Siddartha was a respect young man what had great knowledge of his religion and everything it consisted of. Siddartha was unhappy and wanted to seek more knowledge. Siddartha, bored and joyless in his heart was sure that the old brahims, his father and all his teachers had passed on all the knowledge they had. His mind was not full, and he was not at peace. No one could express meaningful ways for him to attain knowledge. He says, " Where were the priests and wise men who were not only successful in knowledge, but also experiencing it."
             After joining the Samanas and taking in their beliefs, his one goal was to rid himself from desire, thirst, dreams, pleasure and sorrow. He learned many ways to lose himself in many forms. He volunteered suffering and pain and conquered it, yet he hated returning to his self. He feels he could have learned the art of dying, rotting, and being reborn in a quicker way. He compares himself to a drinker, who drinks to forget about problems. He [the drinker] finds rest and solace, but like the Samanas returns to reality and everything is as it was.
             In search of Gotama, the Buddha Siddartha leaves the Samanas with enough intellect to hypnotize the old Samana. A very difficult task to follow Gotama's teachings don't strike Siddartha, but before he leaves he expresses his opinions. Siddartha feels that the teachings of Gotama show the world as perfectly together by cause and effect. He feels that his teachings leave no room for chance or decisions from god. He then vows he would never be attracted to anyone's teaching.
             Continuing his quest for knowledge, Siddartha realizes that he was only afraid of himself. He wanted to get away from himself to find inner knowledge, yet he lost his Self on the way. His new thought was to teach himself through experience. This is his first awakening and he feels lonely and not belonging to anything.
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