ngs in high places for me. Oh, dear diary. I wish so badly that this void in my life were not here. I miss my husband.
             The arthritis in my knee is acting up today. I am scared, very scared. Who is going to take care of me when I cannot take care of myself? I have no family anymore. I have no one. I sometimes regret our decision not to adopt children. We figured that if God wanted us to have a child, He would have given us a child. But sometimes, I feel God's message might have been that there were plenty of unwanted children in the world, and we should have taken one. I can't think too much about that though, what's done is done. One day I am going to die, this is inevitable. I just don't want to do it alone. Dea
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