hat I ended up being anorexic but it was also at my fault for listening to the insecure jerk.
             The time I was ready to go overboard on my "plans", my mom just obtained her gohonzon. After being told that whatever I chanted for would come true, I jumped right in front of the gohonzon chanting for I had nothing to lose. She told me to chant for "happiness". The "happiness" that I chanted for was non-the less, to be the skinniest girl alive. Chanting to be skinny seemed like a better option for me than exercising and eating carrot sticks. I remember telling the gohonzon I wanted this prayer so badly because I wanted to feel the "happiness" by hurting the ones that hurt me. I wanted to destroy these insecure maniacs that made my life a living hell. Surprisingly, SOME of my prayers were answered. I was a little bit over 100 lbs at the height of 5'9". Being asked if I was a model was as if my dream came true. I even remember pinching my arms for all I felt were bones.
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